nutcasejelly

True happiness consists not multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice.


I think people are gonna bash me because l've not updated my blog for like the longest time. HEH! Busy with exams, bowling etc. Now, busy with finding a freaking job. So difficult to find one. And l don't think it's due to the recession. I wanna get a job so badly. Tried the Kinokuniya. Strict working place. No study leave. No off days. What the hell!

Maybe lm thinking that this is the WORST holiday EVER! l've to attend to  camps this holiday. GOSH! Thinking of it, creeps me out. First was the volleyball camp. Although it's over, it was torturous. Climbing stairs, Obstacle Courses. Man! We all nearly died from all the extreme workouts. Second camp would be the OBS. Although it stands for Outward Bound Singapore, I think to me, it means Oh Boy Singapore. Why would someone come up with this idea for a camp. Every thought of it freaks me out. Imagining me having nightmares about it. AHHA!!!!

Just came back from my short getaway trip a couple of nights back. Had fun there. Lucky dad tagged along for the next 2 days. Cause all of us were running out of cash. People like me and Bernard. HAHA! Joke sial. Go-karted, shopped. What else? HAHA! EAT! EAT! EAT! second night dinner was like a FEAST! 2 fish, 2 vegetables, at least 10 crabs, gong gong, lala, fresh prawns. Nuts uh? Next day lunch was nasi padang. Many plates of food, mostly curry cooked. HAHA! Time really passes by so slowly in Batam. And guess what? What happen in Batam, stays in Batam. (;

Im gonna train extra extra hard for my bowling. As yknow, lm in the NYP team for the bowling pol-ite games. GOSH! Im freaking out. What if l don't perform well? Wil l be a throw face? Many thoughts are running through my small mind. ):

That's all for tonight.
GoodnightEarthlings!(:

PS: Guys!Guys!Guys!

xoxo
J

HEY HOMIES!!!

Im updating my blog tmr. So get ready for all the nonsense that lm gonna crap about.

So, goodnight earthlings! (:

xoxo
J
 

Trust you to do that to me!):

A rather fun-filled weekend. A.Anna's 50th birthday celebration down at Goldkist resort. Was way fun. We had fun disturbing each other. Especially for Mark, he had the pleasure to disturb me. LOL! Bought a necklace from Citigems for A.Anna. Well, it was a last min gift though. HAHA! Pictures will be uploaded tmr. lm so lazy to update.

Another happy note is that l don't have to go back to school anymore. Cause lm having study break and after study break it's my holiday. OMG! lm waiting for this period of time. But another headache is that it's time for me to get a temp job. So that l've got income monthly. GOD! l just hate job hunting session. How l wish l didn't have to quit scruffy's. l miss the people there except that fellow. HAHA! (:

How can someone treat you like that when you've lent a listening ear to him. Is it fair for me or am l those type that easily get bullied by people like you? You don't have an idea what to do and here am l advising you what to do or give my opinion. What lm doing is to lighten your burden so that your life won't be so tough. But guess what l get in return? You calling me names for nothing. Please be in my shoes. Understand my feelings. And now you're mad at me for hanging up on you. Whatever it is, lm giving up on you!

On a lighter note, l might be going Bangkok with Melissa and her brother's friends. Shopping timeeeeeeee!(: lm so excited. Cause this would be my first time going on a holiday with my girlf and sharing the same room. WOOTS! (:

Should l do my makeup lesson tmr? HAA! l don't think so. l might be going back to school to complete my project. TskTsk! l don't wanna do the fucking codes. ): Someone help me out here!(:

Yourhelpwouldbedeeplyappreciated!(:

xoxo
J
 

You're bring me way down. But l wanna stay on the top. Can you stop doing that to me? ):

Im glad lm making you pissed off, BITCH!

Think it thru. Your attitude towards asking me the question is like what THEN you come fucking me off. HAHA! For the past 15 weeks, lm always having my wed off. You are a bloody stupid 'SISTER', if you think that you're and l hope you're not, don't know anything about me having a wed off. DUMB SHIT! Let her tell you what all she wants. Cause l freaking know it's true. Talking about lazy, you're the freaking lazy one. Not washing the dishes after using the plates and stuff, just throwing all your stuff on the table. HAHA! lm better off than you BITCH!

lm just ranting my anger because some bitch just wanna fuck me off in her blog. Thinking whatever she does is so great! Thinking about that makes me so nauesous.

lm gonna wash my hands off everything. It's time for me to ignore all stuff and just carry on living MY own life. I don't have a sister like that. l better not affect myself with her. (:


xoxo
J
 

RESPECT!

What does respect means? l'll show you if you don't have a clue. A formal expression or gesture of greeting, esteem, or friendship. Well, l guess you and  THAT partner of yours doesn't know a thing about it, do you? HA! Thinking that you two are some great couple. GOD! You two are despicable. No wonder got not much friends. And you, treating this as your won home, PLEASE LARH! Get out asap. Don't ever step into my house larh. Thinking that no one knows whatever you two are doing, but l do. Believe it or not, l really do. HAHA! Too bad! (:

Now back to reality!(:

Friday had a match with TP. But l couldn't play. l was down with SUPER high fever. Coach assumed that it was h1n1. Damn him! ): So, l gave the match a miss. Went home and lie in bed and still my temp kept rising.

Saturday was a stay-home saturday. Rested the whole day to go for the feast day at St.Anne's on Sunday. Went to visit the doc and had 5 days mc. So lm gonna make full use of my mc. HAHA! (:

Sunday. An eventful day. Firstly, attend 9am mass. Secondly, go for the feast day. But l don't really find that the fun fair was a blast. l wanted to get shirts but it had to be paid in cash. What the hell! So my tickets are out to my aunty and uncle to play those fun fair games. HAHA! Thirdly, we head to kovan superbowl. We had a family bowling session. Starting, Jeremy, Juliana and Uncle Justin were in a team. Uncle Frank, Mervyn, Mark, Michael, Uncle Steve, Aunty Maryanne, my Dad and me. After 2 games, a few people couldn't play already. So we swopped the team. HAHA! Uncle Steve was the CHAMPION! (:

lm giving school a miss for Monday and Tuesday. HAHA! Told you lm gonna make full use of my mc. HAHA! (:

lhatethebothofyou!BooHoo!

xoxo
J

It has been a long day today. Had school from 8-6. What a killer. l dread school now. Cause it make it seems like the reason to come to school is to sit for the test. Which is horrible. And what a horror, l've flunk my WAD BIG TIME! ): l think l kinda put all the codes at the wrong place. Shit! l prefer IADP. Heh! (:

Met Jia Jing today to hand the invoice to him. For the first time, lm speaking to him so much. We actually gossip-ed and chat about girls. We even walked down to the atrium to look at the girl which he thinks she's cute. Well, l can only say that his taste is much better than the guys in my class. HAHA!

Database was alright. Lecture time went passed so quickly. Didn't get the chance to sleep cause was busy copying ERP homework. HAH! But the lab was fine. Understood it. HAHA! And again, there's another test for database next week AGAIN! OMG! When's all the test gonna end? There's no ending to it. ):

Tmr's my game with TP.  l pray that things will go on smoothly for everything. Hope we don't get the score under 10 and that's fine. HAH! l don't want to put the hope so high. The higher the hope, the greater the disappointment. (:

MotherMaryPrayforus!

xoxo
J

lm going nuts about school. Seriously, the work load is too heavy for me to handle. l can lose weight everyday thinking about the next day's test that's about to happen. HAHA! What's this world coming to? Are we suppose to enjoy life while mugging our ass off? ):

Lucky this week there's only one match and that is friday. Phew. If not, it's gonna affect my studies.

How l wish l can drop networking. Man! l don't understand a single shit about it. And it's a exam-able module.God! Just kill me! ):

l wanna go for my driving. But l've checked the slots. No available slots until the end of Sep. How How? Should l go back to him and get scolded? Maybe l should. Then l can get the license faster and then it'll be more convient for me. How about that? (:

Imjustsotiredthesedays.

xoxo
J

Since you're giving me this treatment, l shall give it back to you too!

Yesterday had an outing to Sentosa. Many people turned up in the end. So fun. Played 2 on 2 all. (:

It's just a brief idea what lm to yesterday. No further details.

Do you ever have this feeling when you wanna help everyone but you couldn't do it? Or do you have that feeling when you're wrongly accused? That's how my heart is feeling. Why does he always look on the negative side? HELLO!! lm being the filial one not her. Why does things got to end like that? lm starting to back away from you. Open your eyes and look out for more things. My heart is so heavy that l can cry a million litres of tears. All lm asking is why why why. lm hearing things from everyone but look like l have to solve it. lm the middle person and lm just a nineteen year old girl. Why put me in a difficult position. l dread it BADLY.

lm starting to think that my life now is in a mess. How am l suppose to solve the problem? Well, l don't think that lm worrying too much or what. But the fact that lm the only one who speaks to him with logic and end up getting hurt. Oh well.

And you! l've got nothing to say to you anymore. Trust you to treat me like that. Double disappointment. ):

l hate mondays!):


ljustwannaliveanormallife!

xoxo
J
 

Drink Drank Drunk!


Last friday was Durty Nelly's 2nd Ann. Scruffy's people decided to go down and so l did. Told Mark about the event and he too came down with Emu. Had loads of fun. First time talking to Emu and Lennie. And that's my first picture with them (: But it all had to end in a bad way. Tsktsk! What a waste. But l had loads of fun with both Mel, Steph, Alvin, Mark and etc. HAHA! (: Awesome people.

Anw, l've quitted from scruffy's. And lm jobless. BooHoo!):

This week is a extended holiday for me due to the H1N1. I thought it was great. But it turned out to be one hell of shit. Lecturers placing even more homework when you're at home than in school. What the hell! ): I don't understand it at all. Save Me!

My whole week is packed with stuff. Like Kong Kong's placing of the urn at St. Peter and Paul. Making of red rubies. Doing homework. Studying for tests next week. Busy Busy Busy! ): But tmr, lm going to Mustafa to get my cheap and good watch. Then head to town to get Levi's jeans and get new tongue studs for Mark and myself then meet up with Soo Wen to receive my treat and catch the Transformers. What a hectic day for me tmr. But l like. Cause lm gonna cam-whore like nobody's business. (:

Yeah. Im gonna get wasted on friday. How exciting can that be. (:

No school! No work! What a joy!((((:

Let'sgetwasted,baby!

xoxo
J
 

It's the holiday time. But lm equally as busy as before. ): It's like there's no time to rest. How l wish there's 48 hours in a day. That would be wonderful. (:

During this week, had three times of volleyball. GOSH! That nearly killed me. 2 friendly match and a crazy training. Lucky, next week's training is only twice a week. But l don't think l can make it for tuesday's training. l've got RCIA. ):

There's more to add on. lm down with heavy flu and serious cough. And l super dread it.

l think this month l'll earn less half of what l've earned last month. ): Cause lm so tired of working 9 hours straight and only getting 20 mins of break only. Hope l passed my drink test. Then l might be getting one share of the tips. Heeh! (:

Man! l wanna go Rebel. Waiting for the opportunity. Yello Jello was great. Went on my birthday!(: Music was great. Surroundings was great. People were great. But you'll only appreciate if you do listen to 70's and 80's music. Then you'll love it there. Well, l've found a fan within my friends alr. Amazing!(:

Today is my break day! What am l gonna do? Umm... Shopping at T1 and bowling at Tampines Safra. HAHA!(: l've decided to give Life's a beach down at sentosa. ):

lm gonna have my Rights of Accpetance tmr. Big day! BIG BIG day! (:

lmfeelinghothotHOT!

xoxo
J
 

How lovely can they go?

Today is the day that my grandfather is going to be cremated. l guess everyone should be slightly shaken about it. Just to let you know, this photo is just taken on my grandfather's 79th Birthday which is on the 9th of Jan. It seems like yesterday only. Everything happens so fast. It's like a couple of months back he then started to feel unwell. But just recently then we got to tell him that he got cancer. Before we know it, it was time for us to let go. Sad to say, many of us can't bare to let him go. Although we know that by letting him off now is better for him, we still miss him dearly and deeply. We all have deep and unforgotten memories about him. l've never gotten the chance to say to him but still l'll say it. "Kong Kong, though you are gone, you'll be deeply missed by all of us. I love you!<3" 

l've been doing night shift for the 3rd night. l feel tired but no matter what, l'll still have to hang on. After all, it's for my grandfather. (: Hope there's smth to keep me awake for the next 12 hours. (:

School's out for me for this whole week. Although l went school on monday, it wasn't productive cause l couldn't concentrate. Tues onwards l start to give school a miss. Cause lm doing night shift so l can't wake up on time to go to school. Man! lm not gonna see my crush till next week. How demoralizing is that. HAHA! ):

l hope William Hung can let my group do the informal presentation next week. Cause l did not do anything for it yet. lm not slacking but l just don't know which part to start off. ): Help me, Someone!!!

Lastly, l wanna thank those people for all the wishes and their concerns. l really appreciated it alot. Starting of with Melissa, Thanks Babe for being there for me. Advicing me to be strong and all your greatest concern. Following by Pang family, thanks for all the concern. l know you guys are rushing out all the projects and stuff that's why you guys couldn't make it down to the wake. It's alright. (: Not forgetting Ismail, for letting me know that you'll be there for me. How sweet can that be! (: Thanks alot yeah? Last but not least, Thanks to my Sponsor for my RCIA. Maria, Mark and James for coming down to pay the respect to my grandfather. You guys are real nice people. Im glad that l've joined the RCIA. Thanks to all the people who l can't really remember if there's other people. Thanks once again. (:

PS: l'll always have you in my heart.

xoxo
J
 

It's always you l'm singing about!



Work is fine I THINK! It's like getting from bad to worst. ): Kinda start disliking coming to work. But some people are nice there. Now, lm always working in the morning. Cause that's the only time l can work with Mel. It's always chatting and chatting when working with her. Except for the SHIM, Ace. Sucha bitch though.

Anw, l think that mins, hours, days and months are passing very fast. Before yknow it, it's the major exams time. This year is such a busy year. Busy working, busy studying, busy going for RCIA, busy going for volleyball, busy going for bowling. l hardly have time to go shopping, catch a movie etc. Darn saddening larh.

lm wondering how come people can't love each other as it is? Sighs! It's always a question to me. (:

Okay. lm so into Restaurant City now. Practically using com or laptop, l will let my restaurant run. HAHA! (: Major Distraction. Not good! ):

Nowadays, Nanthini and l always gossip about people. HAHA! But WE LOVE IT! 2 thumbs up! (:

Melissa, lm determined to find the Charles and Keith bracelet. (:

Andand l want to get a new black bag pack! (:

xoxo
J
 

Scruffy Murphy's my first F&B job. Now l get to know what's the feeling like to work in a F&B outlet. Firstly, lm a runner. So l've to do all the sauces etc. It's like SUPER tiring. But l can manage it somehow. Cause the people working there are friendly and helpful. Like Alvin. He help me out with the sauces and cleaning of stuff. It's true that the managers there sometimes have PMS. Afterall, this is the BEST job l've ever found. Andand all THANKS to MELISSA! My bitch! (: love you lots lots. (:

Many happy and unhappy things happened at work. It does invovle the customers. We had a GREAT laugh at work. (:

lm bushed. l've been working for the past three days and tmr lm gonna work again. l thought l could work with Mel but Arthur did not put her into the schedule. SUPER sad larh. For the next week, lm going to put saturday morning and sunday night. All right? HAHA!

School's all right for me. Just that l feel that lm always carrying a bomb to school. My bag is super heavy larh. Went to Gloria Jeans. Drinks were slightly more expensive. l think l want to find what's their speciality before having one cup in my hands. (:

Okay. lm kinda known as The Snacks Girl. lm always putting snacks in my bag. Like brownie chocolates and nuts. When l go for work, l bring gums and nuts too. HAHA! Everyone is calling me the snacks girl. Wed lm gonna top up my chocolates. (:

lmtiredandlwannasleepearly.

PS: l want my tips. (: 

xoxo
J
 

When I look at you my heart starts to race.
My head is spinning, I'm lost in your gaze.
I know nothing of the world around me,
Life is just a blur.
Your presence consumes me.
I think of your face, your laugh, your smile,
I hang on your every word.
You control my thoughts, possess my dreams.
I long for your embrace.
Not a day goes bye when I don't think of you.
If only you knew.



Saw my Secret Crush again today. lm telling myself to smile at him when l walk past him next time. (: Hoping to meet him next tuesday morning. HEEH! (:

This week is a real busy busy week for me. Monday went to school. Tuesday, l was suppose to go to the Zoo with Liyun and co. But somehow, Liyun wasn't feeling well. So it was a last minute cancellation. ): Chatted with Melly. Then we decided to go out to chill and did a little window shopping. Then head home. Wednesday, went out with Soo. Shopped for my items. Then went to meet Kevin and Jasmine for a movie. (l think it was suppose to be me deciding whether the sandals sutis her or not) HAHA! Anw, we caught Street Fighter The legend of Chun-Li. Little did l expect that Edmund Chen was starred in it. (: But he did Spore great. Just that the darn show got no subtitle. So many madarin and thai dialogues during the movie. ): Thursday, Soo Val and me went for a tanning session at Sentosa. But only Val and me got burnt or tanned. Soo was there complaining that she got none. HAHA! After that we went to Laselle to watched some fashion show. But we got conned. The fashion show only lasted for 10 mins or shorter. TSKTSK! l kinda think that it's more like a graduation fashion show where the graduated students show their master piece. But it was wonderful. (: Today, l went to school again. After that went home. (:

lmsorry!):

xoxo
J

l'm going down down!



Oh God! My results are out. Seriously l could have done better. lm gonna do better for the next sem. l wanna get into a good attachment in year 3 and enter a uni. Hopefully l can commit to what l've just said. (: Ands l've just realized that everyone is doing better than me. lm starting to dislike someone. Ands lm never gonna group with YOU anymore! UGH!

Last friday, celebrated WQ's belated 20th birthday. Everything was last minute planned. But lucky it all went on smoothly. (: Went to Century Square to get cake. Then went to Siglap's Hong kong cafe to eat dinner + supper. Cut the cake there too. After that, head to ECP to play pool. Met Melly there. So happy!(: After that head home.

Sunday, as usual, went to church. l was late. But only for a couple of mins. (: After that, Hoe Siang timeeeeeeeee! (: l was under the influenced of Uncle Frank. (: After that, head to Dad's place. In the evening, went to visit Kongs at hospital. l think it's due to kidney blockage. ):

Yest, had training. Gosh! It almost killed me. ): Now l think lm the only blocker. Ands that is taking my life away. every jump every move is doing that. ): l think the team is in a mess. Too little people. l wonder what will happen if there's no new year 1s coming in? Ummm..... But on a lighter a note, l've got a lift home by someone. Gosh! Thanks Dude! (: We have a small secret between us. HAHA! Not to be told! (:

l think today is a stay-home day for me. My whole body is aching and my arms are swollen. Tsktsk! ): lm also mourning my results. Super duper SAD larh. Feel like killing myself. ):


lmgonnadiefromsadness! ):

xoxo
J

l need ideas!

Today, we're celebrating Wq's birthday. But we've got no idea where to go. Suppose to go catch a movie with BFF! But he's MIA! WTFuck? How to plan? UGH! ):

Everyoneisbusy. ):

xoxo
J